Sonya Gonzales & Henna Chou duo via COTFG at Museum of Human Achievement 3/22/2017
“Principles of nature, such as gravity, are not something created by the mental process of a person, and so cannot be copyrighted. Other things that cannot be copyrighted include: ideas, concepts, processes, systems…”
music by: Helena Hauff
[you gave me / the rarest bleeding / a hearty bleed / to save me
but what if it’s not real / how do you know what you’re feeling / if you never knew real / if you were always pretending
now we’re here / a place that’s on high / the clouds here / are dark with your eyes
so what do you feel? / so how do you know what you’re feeling / if you never knew real / if you were always pretending
how do you do things? / how do you see dreams? / how do you do things? / how do you see dreams? / did you fool me? / did you fool me? / did you fool me? / did you fool me? / are you fooling yourself? / are you fooling yourself? / are you fooling? / are you fooling?]
i wrote this four years ago during a run of gut intuition, inviting hours of songs being built at hearty speeds — forthright, becoming, enveloped, giving. and it’s been a while since i’ve been there, but the resemblance of my thoughts then is uncanny to my thoughts today.
there is a trust we have within ourselves that cracks the door open to worlds we can only imagine. but our imaginations are the only entities that push us forward into today, so even though they’re indeterminate, they still shape our lives with remnants of our own desires.
but accepting the doubt is just as important as accepting the good. because more than anything, we completely accept ourselves.
the problem with the line / dividing me up / between the measurements i take / and the compounded screams my body’s chambers / make / is the simple fact that it makes me see / the atrocious fear your restless heart denies
my mind getting lost in the sanctity / of your eyes / blurring the space between / where you stand / and where i need to be
my pride in a pool on the floor / i wait for you / to catch up / to our start / waves of your echoes / rattling you / behind
faultless rains / washing us clean / yet you take / the first leave
out / to secondhand streams / a blinded sip / from a cup / mistaken
this is the slowest car crash i’ve ever been a part of. just the worst emotions stretched out over the air, swallowing it all.
just trying to b[r]e[athe]